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YOUR RELATIONSHIP STYLE
The first step in discovering your best match is getting a clear picture of your own relationship style. Good or bad, your experiences with your parents -- in childhood and adulthood -- play a key role in establishing your relationship style and the kind of person who you're best suited for now. Based on your experiences, you will probably fall naturally into one of three categories:


? Isolator: If you are an Isolator, you need a lot of personal space. Isolators minimize emotion, are often guarded and unconsciously push people away, keeping them at a distance.


? Fuser: If you are a Fuser, you have an insatiable appetite for closeness and don't like being alone. Fusers crave attention and are sometimes described as clingy.


? Ambivalent: If you are an Ambivalent, you are a little bit of both. Ambivalents like to pull away, yet they want to feel close at the same time. They can also be confusing and hard to read.



YOU ARE AN AMBIVALENT
YOUR CHILDHOOD EXPERIENCES
Your childhood experiences show that you are an Ambivalent. As a child, you probably received plenty of love and affection from your parents but were also allowed to form your own sense of independence. Your parents may have upset you and let you down at times, but your childhood needs were essentially met. Therefore, as an adult, you have traits that are common in both Isolators and Fusers, two polar opposites. This means that your relationship style includes many interesting contradictions. You've been known to both push people away and expect them to dote on you at the same time. Freedom is just as appealing to you as being showered with affection.


YOUR PERFECT PARTNER
As an Ambivalent, you're uniquely qualified to have a successful relationship with a partner from either category: Fusers or Isolators.

In your case, "happily ever after" depends on which role you find yourself adopting more often. If you're usually the outgoing one in the relationship, often seeking affection and attention, you're more of a Fuser. This means that your perfect partner is actually your opposite type, an Isolator. You may have guessed just the contrary, that your best match would be someone who would shower you with all the love and affection you crave. But happiness for you means partnering with someone who will respect your privacy and support you when you want to do independent activities, much like your parents did.

If you're often a private person who likes her space, you're more of an Isolator. This means that your perfect partner is actually your opposite type, a Fuser. Contrary to what you might have thought, your best match is not someone who gives you all the space and freedom you crave. Instead, your best bet for long-term happiness is partnering with someone who dotes on you, someone who shows his affection and expresses his emotions easily and often, just as your parents did.

Voyager, Mes Amies

I wanted to be a part of what this artist is doing.. This isn't the exact project just the artist. I have been working non-stop and been sooo tired.

My manager is so awesome and everyone I work with is cool too. Also I'm getting more hours, setting some things up and getting ready to open shop basically. I'm concentrating on the better of things in life. Also planning a new trip.

Happy as a clam...

P.S. Did I mention that Kevy sent me a sweet package? With the Entire Series of My So-Called Life on DVD and my wallet. You know anytime someone loses a wallet that's it you never get it back, but I did!

I'm reading a new book also and half way through it. A Piece of Cake by Cupcake Brown, it is a New York Times Bestseller.

Had a dream last night, here is what I it means:

To dream that you fingernails are growing rapidly, refers to your desires to reach out to someone. You want to be able to extend a part of yourself to others.

A relevent addition to this blog: a little outdated but also current
http://dir.salon.com/story/books/feature/2002/12/03/prices/index.html

Chinatown

I met up with Molly and we walked to Target and I bought new flip-flops and socks. Dave met us there and then we went to Dominick's and bought wine. We were walking to Chinatown and we met a nice lady named Helena who had a labrador retriever named molly; we had a nice conversation. Then we hung out in a park for awhile.

When Molly and I were first walking together I found this jacket on the ground that was really cool. I took it with me to Target and then put it in a bag and took it home and washed it. Molly and I played Phase 10 which is a great card game.

It was nice outside but as the night wore on it got soooo windy. We stopped by Chino's house to see if he had seen our roommate but he hasn't. Jeff our roommate has not been home in 4 days and we are worried that something happened to him. He won't answer his phone. He might be having surgury or he might have moved out of the country, either way my other roommates didn't seem too concerned. I had a dream last night that he moved out.

Finally after a lot of walking around we crossed the huge bridge and went into this really nice park. Ping Tom Memorial Park (300 W. 19th St) is the name of it.


We stayed there for hours contemplating, then walked back to Molly's and hung out and Dave and I walked home in the rain.


This morning we woke up and drove to pick up Carol who works for Curly (Dave's boss), his license was reinstated so he has that job again. He is working in 2 restaurants because one of them is only one night a week and the other one is a vegetarian one with more shifts.

We went to the Thompson center and met up with Dorian. We signed the letter to Emil Jones and went up to the Secretary of his office; Carol and I didn't go we left our ids at home. It was quick and then we left and went to a diner called Stages and we had them prepare us something more vegetarian. They didn't have veggie burgers, tofu or even beans! I had stir-fry without the rice and take out the water chestnuts and zucchini and it was on top of a pita. It was good except it wasn't rolled up and they drowned the veggies in soy sauce. Instead of the veggies I took out they added spinach and mushrooms.

Macy's Bootcamp

DAY 1 of Macy’s training, I got out slightly earlier because one I already went to get my ID badge and two I am with a partnership business, and honestly all I need is register training. So tomorrow morning I have to be there at 9:45am and doing register training.

DAY 2 more policies to do over and the dress code; we did a 5 hour Register training and I passed the test at the end with a 93% and we didn’t even do some of these transactions.

What are the pros of working for Macys?

• Get to wear all black clothing as well as mix it up with non-black clothing
• It’s okay to have tattoos and piercings
• It’s more than minimum wage
• I get 10% discount on food at Macy’s including Starbucks
• 30-40% on Macy’s merchandise

Started reading The Rum Diary. Last night it was really nice and we were walking and Dave bought me Ice cream from the ice cream truck. Today it was 71 outside and lovely and we delivered the Gene Siskel Film Center Newspaper for the month of May.

I sampled Frango, which are these mints that sold in Marshall Fields which now is Macys, its a Chicago thing. They are alright I suppose nothing to scream about. People are still pissed that the name is changed, because Marshall Fields is historic.

Wishlist

*A Month Membership to DavidLynch.com
*A Full Torso-Mannequin (They have it here)
*The rest of the Beetlejuice Cartoons on VHS volumes just to be complied with the others to be put on DVD

Current topics I'm pondering; being even more resourceful, DIY, Minimalism, Monochromatic scales, visually expressing (translating the ideas), saving up for another trip to another location, etc.

Color Scheme: Teal, Canary Yellow and Royal Purple

Less is More

Updated version 3.0

There is a coinstar at Jewel better take advantage of that.
Also there is this exhibit that I need to see. BODY WORLDS 2. It is by that German Artist read more about him on HERE.
I've seen him on Ripley's Believe it or not (The TV Show).

Freakazoid is out on DVD I'm excited to know that.

We came back from Boston a week ago, I happened to lose my wallet in it my debit card is cancelled not like they could use it because I have a negative balance and they won't send me a new one until I pay them off anyway. I also have direct deposit at work so those paychecks are paying the bank back no money to me. My ID which I will have to get a new one anyway.

Jack brought me back my printer and a box of stuff I left with him, as well as a Vegan German Ganache Cake, it was yummy. I saw a few of my friends and not as many as I wanted to of course since it was a short trip but I had fun regardless. The dinner we had for Passover was good.

I also raided Dave's book collection in his old room :) with permission of course.


I like my new job only I'm not getting many hours, I have to get a second job and his job is now over because his boss didn't follow some strict procedures.

Oh and they have CLONE HIGH

Very excellent show

I remember all of these shows geez, I am getting old these are the shows I would watch when I was like 6. What they need to do is get Beetlejuice the cartoon on DVD, I only have 2 volumes on VHS but I could just convert them, I want to go back to collecting them, and then I will have them put on dvd.

So the other night Dave and I went to see Do the Right Thing; such a good movie. But right before we bought Garrett's Gourmet Popcorn which is so good, its a Chicago thing. That store always has a line going out the door ALWAYS. The one on Madison is not as bad as State but still its pretty packed.

I baked a cake 2 nights ago out of boredom it tastes pretty good, and we used our frozen strawberries to put on top. We are seriously running low on all sorts of resources but I'm not worried just yet.

I have been working on my portfolio to submit and enjoying the perks of my new job. LIKE FREE CALENDERS and FREE BOOKS also, they get rid of them sometimes and then they are free to a good home basically. I was thinking I was going to grab a bunch and donate it to Revolution Books cause they need donations.

I also can borrow books and I decided on

Catching the Big Fish: Meditation, Consciousness, and Creativity

By David Lynch of course, a film-making genius. After I saw Eraserhead I actually understood some of the concepts behind it; it takes a bit of analyzing to fully comprehend some of the other films. Also I think by reading it I will understand more of this question(s) I have been pondering lately.

If you create without a purpose can it still have a meaning? If everything you've ever done is random can it not only be visually pleasing but can it convey a meaning?

Basically do you need a goal to accomplish or can you like wind just be as you are. But I feel I've always been as is, if you tally the number of random cool things you've done besides life experience what have you really accomplished and its depressing to think you do anything just to have to be destroyed.

But there is a general goal and focus its not completely random and if my internal compass says its right then it is. It's a combination of logic and heart; growth is the most important thing in life; not being able to do that is failure. You have to constantly evolve into another version of you.

I'm not looking for quick fixes or concrete omniscent answers I just want a huge step in the right direction.


In a side note I finished another book and started also Nadja

Oh and there is a great game called Cut to the Beat its like DDR but you pick your own mp3s and click on it with arrows and it cuts up patients, its from the show Nip/Tuck. It's on the FX GAMES Page.

Oh I saw The Dangerous Lives on Alter Boys good movie.

Special Needs NEWSFLASH

There are five different levels in Maslow’s hierarchy of needs:

1. Physiological Needs:These include the most basic needs that are vital to survival, including the need for water, air, food, and sleep. Maslow believed that these needs are the most basic and instinctive needs in the hierarchy because all needs become secondary until these physiological needs are met.

2. Security Needs:These include needs for safety and security. Security needs are important for survival, but they are not as demanding as the physiological needs. Examples of security needs include a desire for steady employment, health insurance, safe neighborhoods, and shelter from the environment.

3. Social Needs:These include needs for belonging, love, and affection. Maslow considered these needs to be less basic than physiological and security needs. Relationships such as friendships, romantic attachments, and families help fulfill this need for companionship and acceptance, as does involvement in social, community, or religious groups.

4. Esteem Needs:After the first three needs have been satisfied, esteem needs becomes increasingly important. These include the need for things that reflect on self-esteem, personal worth, social recognition, and accomplishment.

5. Self-actualizing Needs:This is the highest level of Maslow’s hierarchy of needs. Self-actualizing people are self-aware, concerned with personal growth, less concerned with the opinions of others, and interested in fulfilling their potential.

There you are I'm self-actualized, now get your own life.

Types of Needs:Maslow believed that these needs are similar to instincts and play a major role in motivating behavior. Physiological, security, social, and esteem needs are deficiency needs (also known as D-needs), meaning that these needs arise do to deprivation. Satisfying these lower-level needs is important in order to avoid unpleasant feelings or consequences. Maslow term the highest-level of the pyramid a growth need (also known as being needs or B-needs). Growth needs do not stem from a lack of something, but rather from a desire to grow as a person. Maslow’s hierarchy of needs is most often displayed as a pyramid, with lowest levels of the pyramid made up of the most basic needs and more complex needs are at the top of the pyramid.

(Source Kendra Van Wagner)

Watched Straw Dogs last night, not very good.

Watched Angels and Insects that was MUCH BETTER.

http://panasonicyouth.buzznet.com/user/journal/140194/

This article is pretty screwed up.

In other news

Pee in an air sickness bag, get a flight voucher.

After downing two tall beers at the Boise airport, SkyWest passenger James Whipple was told he

couldn't use the restroom on the plane he was on, because a light wasn't working. Unable to hold it, the resourceful gentleman urinated into an air sickness bag instead of his trousers. No other passengers noticed Whipple using the bag, but a flight attendant asked him about it and told the captain, who called airport police. Whipple was questioned and took a taxi home to Sandy, a Salt Lake City suburb. The airline sent him a letter of apology and a flight voucher, SkyWest spokeswoman Sabrena Suite-Mangum said Friday.

Now this is even better what is this guy's problem, he calls Barbara Walter an "empty mind slut". Does he realize how retarded he sounds?

http://mediamatters.org/items/200703210002

In response, Savage said: "She used this dictator in Venezuela as a forum, as a fulcrum, in order to call the president those names." Savage added: "Notice what this double-talking slut just did, this mind-slut Barbara Walters. And I stick by those words. She's an empty mind-slut. She'd peddle anything for a ratings point." Savage went on to call Walters a "mental prostitute" and said, "I think that the woman is vermin. I think she's dirt."