Anne, Neely and Jennifer 11/13/2006

8:58 PM - Anne, Neely and Jennifer

This works better than I thought it ever could. Today I bleed which of course makes both of us happy. I'm still in denial if I feel something, but doing this is just really easy and it doesn't bother me, that's why I stay. Fuck isn't that why I always stay. There is never any reason, other than. Well it's just hard to find these things and well I keep wanting to find something else, but why just because I can't feel trapped. I can't any sense of security, but they know it also. I'm not hard to read in any way, despite I'm not overly emotional, anyone with half a brain can tell what goes on, maybe that something is even going on.



So many choices, why should I choose, I can do any number of things. I'm barely ever stressed; I'm just in this really good place. I wish I could really describe it but I've been blank lately and overly affectionate.



Blanket

To see a blanket in your dream, symbolizes warmth, love, security and protection. You may be seeking for some form of shelter from the outside world. Consider also how your dream may be calling attention to a "cover-up" in some situation or circumstance in your waking life.

So we found these lights, and golden pieces of fabric from the Queen Street trash which never fails to have really cool trash. Someone made an electric chair from it.



I hand washed all my pantyhose and a few baby doll shirts.



He and I did 2 months worth of laundry because it really needed to be done.



We have been going out and staying out later which is great because we were both going insane from staying inside all the time.



Last night he stole this Ruby Gloom Poster for me, you can only get it here in Canada , because she now has her own show on YTV in Canada.

http://www.ytv.com/programming/shows/rubygloom/



It makes me happy!



We went to the Queens head and had some cheap shots; I can't drink so much due to my meds they have a bad reaction so I only had a shot of Jagermeister and 2 Ice Teas. Last night we went to the Blue Moon to drink and we both had a shot of Tequila with a lemon and salt. I just remembered how I had that Margarita Mix with Tequila and it was pretty good. The street booze I had found during September 1 st during moving out/moving in day in Boston.



So my birthday is coming up and I told him what I wanted and what I want is actually cheaper than what he wanted to get me, he wanted to get me acupuncture session because I always have fucking back problems, because this bed we sleep in is so shitty and it makes a lot of noise. But seriously the coils stick in our sides and I can't even sleep on this side, so I sleep better on the other side, but either way this bed sucks.



Two books I just got The Frugal Traveler and Valley of the Dolls. The latter I'm half way through its really good.



We went to the Regent Park Film Festival; last night. It was free, it was held at a Public Middle School. I really love short films and of course independent stuff.



Love, Sex, and Ohhh….! Canada Run Time 89 Minutes

Co-presented by the Inside Out Lesbian and Gay Film and Video Festival.



Films I liked:

INNOCENT: Cliff Kafai Mok/2004/Canada/6 minutes

This powerful animation film shows how love turns to hate under the influence of religious guilt.



It's animated and cute and funny and then it's really deep and disturbing.



FUTURE NATION: Kent Monkman/Canada/2006/10 Minutes

When a gay native teenager is outed to his older sister and homophobic brother back on the reservation- it's the end of the world-Literally.



It just has a cool plot, there are some things that don't make sense but the entire thing is really cute.



CAN YOU LOVE ME ?: Adam Garnet Jones and Sarah Kolasky/Canada/2005/10 Minutes. How far can the pursuit of love take you? This painfully intimate documentary about a Toronto artist's disturbing project is also an animation, an experiment with formal techniques and an examination of one woman's art and sexual politics.



I really liked this one because it was so honest, and it wasn't that disturbing it was really funny. An art student puts her picture on a flyer that reads; can you love me? With her phone number. So this guy Jordan

For my birthday he will buy me absinthe and we are probably going to the Mr. Leatherman Toronto, and take this S/M Seminar on Electric Play.



I was working on being a dominatrix and a foot model but we are leaving too soon for me to get much work. I will still do it and I think I may have a photo shoot coming up soon.



I'm making a scrapbook of our things from here. And I'm making a new outfit.



I just finished reading, Valley of the Dolls, so good.